Making The Best Of It!

Making The Best Of It!


I saw this the other day on Instagram and had to screen shot it!  "The secret of happiness and peace is letting every situation be what it is, instead of what you think it should be, and making the best of it." -Marcandangel

I read it and then read it again and it just struck a chord with me.  Everyone has to find their own happiness and peace, it's something that no one can do for you!

I've been in a funk the last few weeks and it's kinda taken me back to when my dad first died and I was just going through the motions.  I remember thinking that I was vertical and so I was doing ok but I was in such a fog.  I can't remember details about the next year after he died and now it makes me crazy!  How could I not remember things about the boys???  How could I not remember???  Then I start feeling like the worst mom ever because I can't remember.  I feel like sometimes I lost several months of my life.  In a world where we (as moms) are suppose to be super mom the guilt can take over!  I don't understand why, we as a society, put that pressure on mommas...that's whole other post!  Any way, back to the guilt...I've decided that it's the devil working.  And I have a rule at my house...if the devil is working on you then we kick him out and for the little boys (and when the bigger boys were little!) we go to the door and kick in the air and tell the devil to leave and that he's not welcome here.  Say a prayer and then get moving!  Last week I had a kick the devil out party and it's refreshing!  So here's where I'm at and I'm learning to be ok and embrace it...

I'm a different person now than I was when my dad was alive.  I'm in the midst of raising 4 strong willed boys, my house is never clean and my laundry...well let's just say it's never even close to being done!  I'm a #farmgirlinthemaking and still learning and trying and doing on the farm, thankfully my husband is patient and a great teacher!  I'm a single momma 2 weeks at a time while my hubby is gone working in the oil industry.  I eat way too much chocolate but workout so it's a wash, right?! I'm  too tough on my boys and I'm not tough enough.  I try and I fail!  I still cut hair very part time. I have big plans and dreams but right now I'm all about my family and as my dad used to say, "Taking care of your own teepee"!  I'm political and observe my 2nd Amendment right!  I attempt to cook and sometimes we eat out too much.  I lose my patience too often and at times I let the devil try to steal the joy of all this chaos.  But thankfully little reminders pop up in places, like this picture, and then I realize hey this is where I'm at right now and it's ok!  After all nothing stays the same forever and as long as I KEEP ON KEEPIN ON then this crazy life is bound to be good overall!