Six Months Later...A letter to my dad.

It's been 6 months and I just had to write a letter to my dad, so here goes.

Dad,
     Yesterday marks 6 months since you left this earth and began your new journey.  It still doesn't seem real that you're not here and not coming back!  I miss you so much dad!  Mom has good days and hard days as do the rest of us.  But you've taught us to be strong and she's one strong and amazing woman.  No wonder you fell in love with her, she's awesome beyond what I can describe.  Mom is doing just like you told her!  I know you're proud of her, I am!  The boys talk about you everyday and Trevin says he's gonna be Papa now, since you're not coming back.  They're strong just like you.  I think about you everyday.  I wake up in the morning and reach for my phone to call you, only your name isn't there.  I want to call you so many times throughout the day to tell you what I heard on Glenn Beck, to tell you about the funny and cute things the boys are doing, to ask you what to do about the boys, to simply hear your voice.  I know you're with us and I can feel your presence but I want to see you and hear your voice but most of all I want a hug.  I miss your reassurance, love, support, friendship, and guidance.  But most of all I miss your smile!  I know that life goes on, that's what you taught me, but I just didn't expect it to be this hard.  I've done just like you've told me to do, I've gotten up everyday and given my best and taken care of the boys.  I was listening when you told me that after you were gone was the hard part.  I couldn't understand at that time, after all watching someone (not just someone but you) die was the hardest thing I've ever witnessed.  However, just as hard as that was, it's nothing compared to going on with life without you here.  I mean how am I suppose to be happy and enjoy when you're not here to be happy and enjoy with us?  The only thing that gets me through is knowing that you're not in pain anymore!  Your strength will always amaze me!  I don't know how you got up everyday and made the best of it, you're attitude and strength will always inspire me.  For as long as I can remember you've been in pain and I don't ever remember you letting that define you.  Dad, I hope I can be as positive as you've been in your life.  I know that God needed a warrior like you to help fight the spiritual battle that we are facing but I miss you so much.  58 years just doesn't seem like enough time and it's just not fair! I know, I know life's not fair.  I know you've taught me that but right now I just miss you.  I know you already know this but I love you and I thank you for all you've done (and continue to do in only ways that you can!) for me and my family.  I know you've given up so much to always be there for me and I'm so very thankful.  I love you, Trin