Day 2....

Day 2...
Yesterday was busy getting ready for my dad's celebration of life and let me just say it was awesome and beautiful.  I'm so touched by the many people that came to honor my dad.  I've always said having a memorial or funeral is like planning a wedding in 3 days and our friends did it in 24 hours!  Thanks so much to them for making it just how Clovis would like.  I know he's not in pain anymore and loving watching us celebrating him and his life and his beliefs!  Once again I can't thank him enough for all he's taught me and continuing to teach me... he's on my shoulder still guiding me!

Today is Day 2 and it's been weird and restless feeling.  Last night my mom stayed with me and I thought it was to "take care of her"...ha!  She's taking care of me!  Her strength is amazing and I hope I can be like her for many reasons.  We stayed up til 2:30 in the morning talking and laughing and crying and Gary was right there with us.  Let me say at this point,  Gary is my rock!  He's been amazing throughout this entire journey, beginning back at the hospital in 2009.  At that time in our lives, we were both very focused on our careers and our kids but not building a life together.  It was kinda like we coexisted together, but when he drove me to the hospital in OKC that night his true colors showed.  He never left my side and did anything and everything I could have possibly asked for, most of the time before I even asked.  Fast forward to a month ago and he's my rock more than ever and been completely amazing for me and my mom.  We've grown in these last 2 and half years and have a love that is unbreakable.  I love him with all of my might and love that's he's my rock now...I will never be able to make him understand how thankful I am for him and his family.

Tomorrow is dad's memorial in Forgan, OK, his hometown.  It'll be a great time just as last night was only in a different way.  I have a flood of emotions and can't even begin to describe them.  So for now I had to write about what was going on day to day...I'm working on my next one which will be the hard one.  I want to write about his last 2 days, but it won't be for the weak!  I feel the need to really take my time writing that one so just bear with me.  But that's not the end of my blogging about the journey, I have many stories and life lessons I want to write about.  I really feel like when I started this blog it was going to be about my new adventure as a farm wife...little did I know becoming a farm wife has allowed me the opportunity to really listen to God and my family so that I can really focus and enjoy what's really important!  I'm so thankful my mom and dad encouraged me to make the jump & quit my job!  I will forever think my dad was thinking and teaching me to take care of my own first and foremost!  Because he always said you have to take care of your own teepee first before you can be of any help to others...I truly believe this.

For now this is all I can do...I'll keep writing and get the next one out soon.  Trinity