A Time For Everything...

This pretty much says it all...

I came across this yesterday and it just brought all kinds of memories to mind.  It's funny how the smallest of things, smells, songs, places, or people can bring back a memory.  The memory comes back so fresh and raw.  It makes me stop and think and sometimes it feels as if you've just gotten the wind knocked out of you.  I've had a lot of those moments lately but just taking things day by day.  After all that's all we really have, today.  Yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn't here yet so we really do just have today.  So my motto is MAKE THE MOST OF TODAY!

While we have no guarantee of tomorrow, this verse just pretty much says it all.  My dad has always taught me that there's a time for everything; the good, the bad, and the ugly.  He would continuously explain to me how important timing was in so many ways.  If you really stop and think about it, timing is everything.  If you follow your instincts, you'll never go wrong.  By this I mean that if it doesn't feel right to drive somewhere, then don't.  You don't know what wreck or break down you missed just by following your gut.  This is just one small example of how important timing is in the big scope of life.  I know this verse is long but it really says it all.  I miss my dad telling me things like this.  At times I think how much I miss hearing him tell me these wonderful life lessons and then it really hits me that I'll never actually hear his voice again.  That's when I just want to loose it!  I want to throw things, scream, yell, cry, curl up in a ball and cry til I can't cry anymore.  I just want to loose it completely.  However, this usually occurs at the most inopportune time.  I have my four boys that I can't just loose control in front of, now don't get me wrong they see me cry lots.  I just want them to know it's ok to be upset and miss him and talk about him all the time.  With that being said I don't want them to use Papa's death as a crutch so that they don't have to deal with life in general.  We've made some huge life changes, of which I'll write about later, but Gary and I both feel this is what's best for our family at this time.  And I can hear my dad say that timing is everything and that you can never go wrong with your gut, so here we go.  I can still hear him and feel him guiding me,  I just wish I could physically hear his voice and hug him.  I know I will someday and that it'll go by "in the blink of an eye" but for now it's still very raw and painful!  Did I mention painful?!?  Still painful, I think it'll always be painful.  

There is a time for everything.  And during this time we must enjoy, endure, KEEP ON KEEPING ON,  and never give up.  I realize now that this is a time of enduring and a time of firsts.  A lot of firsts without my dad, after all we have our parents our entire life.  Meaning until a parent dies, we've never lived or known a life without them!  So I'm learning how to continue a life with happiness and joy without my dad physically here.  He'd be ticked if we didn't keep on living and embracing all that we have to be thankful for, so I'm striving to find happiness.  And I will!  Because there's a time for everything!

Trinity