Mom's Night Out...the movie

Mom's Night Out...the movie

Yesterday was my 37th birthday and I pretty much planned my evening.  I knew I couldn't plan my whole day but I decided I was going to plan my evening.  I wanted to get my girlfriends and go to a movie and to be honest I really didn't care what movie.  I just wanted to have adult conversations and eat my own food without sharing and only go to the bathroom when I have to.  It sounds simple and selfish but for this momma of 4 boys, it's a luxury!  It was 5 years ago on my birthday that my dad went to the hospital, and my/our lives were changed forever.  One minute I'm swimming with my boys without a care in the world and the next I'm hoping that my dad will make it...but knowing in my heart that he wouldn't and he would never be the same.  That's kinda hard to grasp when I think about it now and I just needed a little girl time.

So back to the movie with my girlfriends...I had been wanting to go to this old movie theater in the small town about 45 minutes away.  I'd heard how great it was and cheap and the show dogs were just awesome.  I'd plan to go with my boys or hubby and something would always come up and we just never made it happen.  I thought...I'm going for my birthday.  When I checked to see what was playing I couldn't help but think it was meant to be when Mom's Night Out was showing.  I'd seen a few previews for it and thought it'd be funny.  However I never expected it to be so funny yet so close to the truth!  My friend leaned over and said is this a documentary of your life...I laughed and laughed and laughed some more and pee'd my pants just a little!  It was the perfect movie for my girls night out with the perfect company to boot.  I couldn't have planned it any better...if you've seen the movie you'll understand the whole planning thing!  

So here's to my mom blog... feeling completely stressed... lost in this world... questioning if you're doing all the right things for your children and husband... not having a minute to complete your thoughts... well I learned a little something from that movie...we are enough!!!  Yes that's right...WE ARE ENOUGH!  Right where we're at, we are enough!  So to all moms out there...know that and understand that God has a bigger plan and that you are enough right where you are!  This is just what I needed to Keep On Keepin' On! 

Get Over It...

Get Over It...

I've heard this several times since my dad died...It'll take awhile to Get Over It.  Now I'm sure that I've said that to people in the past and had no idea what I was saying and how it felt to them.  I'm learning what not to say!  But you know, until you have lived through certain situations you really don't know how you'd handle it.  Here's what I do know...YOU NEVER GET OVER IT!!!  You simply learn to live a new way of life without them.  I say simply as if it is really simple but it's far from it.

When a person that's loved and gives love dies, they leave a huge empty space that's not only physical but emotional as well.  You notice the physical absence immediately and the emotional absence seems to be harder the longer time goes by.  I grab my phone to call my dad over the littlest of things only to realize I can't talk to him.  Sometimes it's ok and other times it's all I can do not to bust out in tears.  Depending on when this wave of emotion comes over me depends on if I let those tears out.  I seriously never knew how much the wind could get knocked out of me at the most random times.  But the thing that I think about when this happens is...

If you love, live life, make the best of everyday (the good and the bad), and laugh then you are really living life.  And if you're really living life then no matter how long or short your time is on earth, your presence will be missed but you will have left a lasting impression on those around you and that you love.  So in a nutshell...LIFE GOES ON BUT YOU NEVER GET OVER IT!  I'm thinking that I'd rather have had all the great experiences and really lived life than not.  So you know you've got to KEEP ON KEEPIN' ON!