| This is the 3rd Father's Day card I've bought for my dad since he died... I can't help but still get him a card and fill it out. I guess it's my way of a little therapy. |
Father's Day
It's been 2 years since my dad died and this makes the 3rd Father's Day without him...it's still rough! I miss him! I miss him everyday! I still reach for the phone to call him everyday and still think he'll come driving up my road. I miss him! To say that it gets easier with time, like I've heard, is completely false in my opinion! It is just a different way of life now. And I can hear my dad saying, "You can either make this a great ordeal or a great adventure...don't waste time, kid! Life's not fair but you've got lots to be thankful for!"
I can't imagine how hard this way of life would be if my dad hadn't had such an amazing attitude about living and dying while he was here. When I get down, I can hear him and the way he said things, and I can't help but smile and laugh just a little! He really had a way with words and loved getting your attention by using a little shock factor, which I tend to do too! He could light up a room like no other and I miss that! I miss him! The boys talk about him everyday and even the little ones talk about him like they knew him as well as the big boys. It makes my heart happy and sad all at the same time. I can't believe he's not here to make his mark on the little ones like he did with the big boys or that he's not here to help guide the big boys! That makes my heart hurt. I can feel him here but I really miss his presence.
I just keep thinking about how short life really is and that we're not guaranteed tomorrow, something I think my dad really understood. I'm guessing spending time in war would make a person have that understanding. This is one life lesson learned from my dad that I'm so thankful he took the time to teach me. Now I'm trying to teach it to my boys...Life's not fair and it's too short to sweat the small stuff! My dad had a way of making even the worst situations good. I'm a firm believer it's because of his amazing attitude on life. So I will try to do just as my dad taught me and I will KEEP ON KEEPIN' ON!
Trinity
